Oh this is difficult.
Okay well I rarely vomit anymore. So these are my more mild days.
Wake up (if its before 9:30, I am so nauseous I want to die.)
Asses within seconds how I’m feeling. (GP symptoms are compareable to a stomach flu or food poisoning, I will experience all of these throughout a day )
- A feeling of fullness after eating just a few bites
- Abdominal bloating (food babies all day.)
- Heartburn or gastroesophageal reflux
- Changes in blood sugar levels
- Lack of appetite
- Weight loss and malnutrition (fatigue, weakness, light headedness)
- Vomiting of undigested food —sometimes several hours after a meal
- Spasms of the stomach wall
- Pain in the upper abdomen (sometimes unbearable)
- Painful hiccups
Typically when I first wake, I feel nauseous, I’m in a lot of pain, I’m dizzy, and exhausted. Some days are worse then others. If I’m feeling too nauseous, I will consider sitting on the bathroom floor. If I have no appetite, I go about getting ready for the day. If I have an appetite, I will “go stare at food” meaning I will stand in my pantry, close my eyes, and literally imagine myself eating something to see if I’ll actually eat. Lately if I eat at all in a day it is 8 vanilla wafers, dipped in nutella, with a glass of milk. (Milk seems to really help with my nausea and is one of the only things I crave. )
Before eating I weigh myself every morning. If I am losing weight, I’m really sick. If I’m gaining weight, that’s good. (currently I am 134lbs while I was 160 at my highest. All the weight loss is from my sickness, and 20lbs of it was lost almost instantaneously when I was at my worse.)
Throughout the day I will go up and down. Stress levels affect my symptoms. I will randomly regurgitate (kind of like throwing up in your mouth), feel extreme pains that almost cause me to collapse, start to feel dizzy, faint, and weak (from malnutrition/starvation), get very painful hiccups that last all day, eat and immediately regret it (intense pain/nausea/vomiting after eating). I get exteremly full and bloated after maybe 3 drinks of anything, full after a few bites.
By the end of the day I have to decide if I’ve used up all of my fuel and cant go on another second, or if I can maybe go out and try to enjoy myself (which causes me to be even worse the next day.)
I am like a broken down car that is always running out of gas.
Here is a video of my story.